whenever it rains and just makes me want to stay in bed.

but not just my bed now...a bed that I never had. a bed that I might never have, in a house I might never have, one where I have a room with a wall of windows...no, glass doors. glass doors so that I can open them up and just see and hear the rain fall out beyond the patio.

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people paying me get them drunk is the silliest thing ever.
amazing to me that I can make a really good living doing what I do.

this isn't the first time I've felt that way...it's just that...I don't know, I was thinking about it again last night after work.

started working at Tommy D's new bar out on Bell Blvd.
the place looks amazing.
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lucky if we're speaking on the holidays

it's nights at work like tonight that make me think about how we really need to start having a population control law put into effect.

we drank to forget.
that our lives were a wreck.
that's when I realized that you were the only pretty thing left.

you were clenching your fists.
you were bitting your upper lip.
I watched a thousand tiny goosebumps gain the territory of your skin.
and for whatever this is worth.
I was happy.
I was sure.
of everything.

but you got away.
yeah didn't you babe.
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Warped Tour was about 15% enjoyable this year, and that's really just more for seeing Ant and hanging out with Tony/Derek and Vienna.

the car adventure to get there was worth me getting out of the apartment.

Warped wasn't though.

Wonder Years, Vinnie, and Handguns were the only things I cared to see.
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ever just think, where the fuck did I go wrong?

I fuckin hate having allergies.

I feel like someone beat my face with a giant black dildo.

riding north on the train is certainly nice for the fact that I don't have to pay attention to anything that isn't on my phone in from of me.
I get to blast music either way.
but with how shitty the stereo is in the Focus, my badass headphones actually win out.

Taking the train does add time to my trip, but not really in that terrible of a way.
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yeah somehow the world keeps turning

insane.